Things I have learned

I haven’t blogged in a while so it is time to get back into it. A lot has happened since my last blog. We have moved from Greenville, NC to York, SC. I have had surgery and placed my boys into a new school. This past week I was at a conference and the speaker talked about how God can sift us into the people He wants us to be. Let me explain.
Last spring we decided to move and about that same time I found these lumps on my throat. On the day that we were packing up I was told that I have thyroid cancer. We moved to my new church assignment and I had surgery within two weeks of the move. I had no control over it and our insurance has not paid for very much. There was so much going on and God was faithful. I made it through the surgery and later found out that the tumors were benign. PTL!! I am still recovering. Then the boys started their new schools. For the last 8 years I have been around the boys at school because I substituted at their school. I could keep up with them.
Why am I telling you this? At the conference God began to reveal to me what He is doing in my life. When the doctor told me I had cancer I took it all in stride and was somewhat concerned. When it came to the surgery it brought a fear that I had never experienced before. I was afraid of being put under and not being in control. The day I took Kyle to school and dropped him off was one of the worse days I have ever had. I couldn’t go with him and on top of that I had made this decision for him. It was a tough day. And now we are looking at about $20,000 of medical bills.
What God has taught me is that I don’t have to be in control all the time. I am a control freak and I don’t need to be like that anymore. I need to trust God in everything. I have to trust Him with my life and even when I am facing cancer. I could not control it if I wanted too. I have to trust God with my boys. I don’t have to protect them all the time and just simply place them into God’s hands. When I am not in control fear sets in and I cannot live that way. The interesting thing about all this is that my excessive worrying about money is leaving. I know we owe a lot but God is bigger and more faithful than I can ever imagine. He will not let us down after the summer we have had. I hope this helps you. Good day!